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I'm a flighty person.  I have a hard time focusing, and concentrating my efforts on my continual improvement.  I have a job, I work 10 hour shifts, it makes it hard for me to focus completely when I play, and I am usually fairly tired.
I give in easily and make bad calls, because when I'm nearing exhaustion my fold button simply doesn't work.  It would be ok to play like this occasionally if I had a proper bankrool, but because I'm a common working guy every tourney I play is more and more important and nearing the bubble, struggling to be sure I cash keeps me from optimal play...
I need to win the lottery, it's simple as that...

I'm an idiot!

First thing i do today, is break my rules 3 times and get my br down to $55.

A $24+2, $10+1 and $5+.50

Get over half way through both just didnt find any good situations that came through.  A couple good moves at good times on flops, but get called by junk having a ton of outs, and of course lost the hands in both places, at the point of the move and the river.

Time for a break and back at it later...

GL,

Cole

This is going to be short, what a great way to start off your (lack of) commitment to blogging right?  I'm a little to tired to say too much, but this is something i want and need to start doing to help me understand my thought processes and better gauge my development as a player.

First I'll say, bankroll management is hard.  For me this is a major hurdle, specifically online.  I have alot of gamble in me, which is something i need to control, both in my bankroll management, but also my playing.

I need to start reworking my end game, I've recently gotten myself in position to get to final tables, but have only made one and finished 4th.  Part of my tiredness is going failry deep in a couple tournies over the last couple days on Full Tilt, making the money after 3-5 hours of play and not even doubling my money.  It's hard to survive when you can't cash for more than your buy in.

I have $90 online and I'm not going to redeposit.  Let me say that again a little clearer, so I can understand it better...  I AM NOT GOING TO DEPOSIT ANYMORE MONEY ONLINE!  There, though I still don't completely believe myself, but its a start.