Finlay a 4 figure score been so long. Chopped the tilt 10 dollar deep stack 4 handed last night for $3300 bux.I feel I was in really good shape to win it there was only one other competent player at my final table his name was Fold Pleaase. But since my bank roll has been making small deposits until I bink something decided to take the gtd money. I really wanted to play it out but from a logical stand point and not a competitive one I thought this was best option.It had 2k runners feels pretty damn good to close out a solid cash in a field that large once we got to 45 players I had a decent top 10 stack and was relentless with 2.2x raises and was chipping up big time making good bluffs. I raped the final table bubble haha. I was 3 betting so much and even made a couple of 4 bet bluffs that worked out good. Its funny I could sense their frustration a couple times because I was raising so much nothing like firing a big 4 bet with air that deep and knowing its good play.

I knew it was a matter of time as good as I have been playing this past month just gota keep your head up and be confident in your decisions. Being humble maintaining a good attitude has been key for me.

I have been gaining positive momentum scored a 3rd in $4 cubed was small 250ish filed but was good for $300 bucks that and several deep runs have done nothing but make my goals seem more achievable.Mind set has been sick and limiting my play to about 3 days a week seems to be perfect for me. The volume isnt as much as I would like but its a compromise trying to take baby steps. Its takinn me years to control my emotions on the felts and fucking that up isnt a option.

I will be online abusing some micro donks mainly on stars tonight. Its so fun watching bad players melt down and spew its what keeps me on the straight and narrow when it comes to tilt. I use to get emotionally attached to every pot I played now i am pretty dull to it. Make a decision and go with it win or loose make more good ones than bad and your good to go.

I think the biggest change in my game as of latley is having confidence in my decisions late in mtts I use to have anxiety about busting out now I just do work. Time to tear it up this weeknd going to get in about 40 mtts this weeknd.

Mind set has been great. Up untill sunday I def felt I was running under expectation but we are talking like 50-60 mtts/ 180s so that isnt out of the ordinary and I keep telling my self this. Sunday I made some deep runs and played some of the most consistent poker I have in a long time. I am growing more confident with every session. And its very clear to me if i continue with this attitude I am going to have certain success.

As I get deep in mtts I have lost the nervous feeling its become a more natural competitive feeling and not a omg I may bust this hand feeling. Its been a long time since I have put aside the want for money for the pure competition of the game. I am only playing micros right now but I dont care. Once I get deep I feel as if its the Sunday mill who cares I am playing to crush souls right now not money. The money will come to those who have realistic expectations on the realitys of poker and I finaly understand that .Its taken a long time but now this is my reality and look out for me over the next few months cause I will be knocking at mistakes door soon enough.