So I have to conlude that the coaching has basically destroyed my game..
Whether i will play poker again with any success or give up the game i'm unsure about at the moment.
Last year I decided to continue playing if I made money and I made at least a few £/$thousand.
This year has gone so badly and every month has been a losing month both live & online until now.
July, i thought would be different & started very well. After my laptop died and has to be fixed i deposited $200 on PKR with 100% bonus which i cleared in 2 weeks, and managed to get up to $700 with the last months rakeback payment. I also won my weekly live donkament for £220, so felt good to be up half way into the month. Since then due to a few bad sessions & tilting / and a bad day playing 100NLHU on PKR my bankroll there is now $0. It is also $0 on FT, Stars, ipoker, cereus, party, ongame, bodog, & cake.

I was given a free $150 ticket to play the $100k bodog last sunday and bubbled, 67/512 (64 get paid), i played well early on, was chip leader on my table for some time & tried to be patient but made a few moves that never worked, someone would always come over the top & i had to fold, I lost a big flip w/KJo vs 10's get Aces on the button, flat called & got no action, and evenually shoved w/KQo in early postion when i was shortstack on the bubble, got called by 1010 and again didnt win the flip.
At one point when i had a big stack i folded 10's to a preflop 30bb shove which haunted me after as i was in a position to go deep and feel like i threw it away. Although had a few things gone different i could well have been in a position to go v.deep in this.. (Need to win more flips / get action w/aces).

So i'm sat here now without a poker bankroll & not prepared to deposit again atm. Not quite sure where to go from here.. I will play live again on Tuesday in the summer league game i've been playing each week. it's £33 buyin, £25 goes to prize pool, £5 to league & £3 rake, they get ~20 players & its generally a good field but i think i have some edge over most players there.

in terms of online i'm unsure.. I was successful last yr playing tournouis! i feel my tourney game has gone backwards in some respects since playing cash as concepts sometimes get confused between the two wheras before i'd been so focused on tourney strategy and it was all i knew.

I really wish i'd not decided to take coaching or start playing cash but the temptation of being coached by someone so financially successful for no outlay was too tempting.

With the cash games, i actually prefer HUNL and think i have more edge there in the games / stakes i play, although when i'm playing well i feel pretty strong at 6-max. The problems i have aare when i'm not in the right mindset to play and either autopilot or tilt or play really tired / exhausted, usually on a Friday / Satursday night after continuous nights with not enough sleep.

When i play focused / not distracted / fresh / not tired etc i will generally win or have the sense to take a break if i start to lose a bit, but when i'm playing tired i lose a bit then carry on mindlessly losing which really hurts the bankroll.

The coach I have had said to me early on that it was the tilt aspect of my game i needed to work on the most. I feel i've improved in this area but still have some way to go so will reallly really focus on this in August.

I've just ordered elements of poker by Tommy Angelo. Hopefully this wll help. I will also try to update the blog more often to motivate me.

The last 6 months have been extremely painful & i hope so much that i can really learn from everything i've been through. This is what i think i've learnt so far:

Bankroll management: have 20buyins for lower levels. So> $200 for 10NL, $500 for 25NL, $1000 for 50NL etc
SO: -------Don't take shots at 100NL until i have $2000---------
This is extremely hard to stick to cos i hate the micros so much but i guess if i cant beat these and have the discipline to do so consistently then how will i consistently beat higher stakes & have discipline when it goes wrong, (which it will),(Its poker ffs!).. So..
on a $200 stick to 10NL until i get to $500. Take shots and if i drop below $400 then stick to the 10NL again.
If i can get to $1000 the take shots @50NL and if i drop below $800 then stick to 25NL. Get to $2000 then take shots at 100NL, drop below $1600 and stick to 50NL. Rinse and repeat.
To suppliment this I will add $200 to the online cashgame BR each month so hopefully this will grow.
It might take a long time but i have learnt that patience is so important and its better to grow the BR slowly. It will grow faster once i get to the higher levels but i must be disciplined to get there & instill this discipline.

Only play at the right times. NO distractions / NOT Tired. If in doubt, stop / dont start and do something different / go to sleep. This is so important for me & mindset management is essential for cashgame success.

This stuff is easy to read but to have experienced the paid from tilting off massive amounts / playing outside BR management has truly taught me these lessons first hand..

Maybe poker won't work out but i've put a lot into it and i really hope it starts to pay off soon.
I'll keep reading, learning, playing & watching vidoes for now and see how it goes for the reat of the year but i do feel like i'm at the stage where i'm confident i wont be making huge losses outside of a fixed bankroll any more...