I had my account hacked on Stars and I did get some of my money back but from there it has been downhill. I took out what I had left after I started losing so now I only play on full tilt. I am so disgusted. I always have the best hand and the river is destroying me. AK on Ace rags flop and I get it all in to someone with A2 and the 2 hits on the river. It is one bad beat after another. I do not know what to do? I watch training videos and I read books and I try and try so hard. I am so upset.

I know a big part of the problem is that I play microstakes on FTP and usually .01/.02 cap six handed. Some people play 90% of their hands and I raise and get 4 calllers it is pathetic. I try limping with some big hands and that doesn't seem to work out. Then sometimes I cap it pre with any big pairs and that does work out a huge percentage of the time. I guess I feel lost. I think in my mind I expect to get sucked out on. I have tried positive affirmations and it does not help. Sometimes I cover the screen so I can't see the cards come out when I am all in because I know if I watch I will lose. I know it isn't rigged but I just feel like the unluckiest player ever. I know that sounds superstitious but I guess I am.

Wow! I forgot I have a lucky shirt maybe that is why I am losing. LOL. I guess I should take a break because this downswing of 30.00 has crushed my soul. I am sure somone with a real bankroll is laughing but I only have 50.00 to work with and I am out of work due to a illness and I was hoping I could win a few bucks. I know this sounds like a bitchfest and I guess it is but I have no poker buddies and my family does not get the whole poker thing so I just wanted to let this all out.

So I will quit for awhile and maybe someday I will love poker again, although right now I kind of doubt it.