I just don't f-ing get it..I go in hands ahead or way ahead and I always seem to get rivered when it matters. When I'm deep in an MTT Ill have 2 pr and someone hits a gutshot on me to knock me out. I can't count the hands I'm ahead and lose on the river. Granted I do hit the river as well but when it matters it's like I'm on shit list for the poker sites to fuck me over. I watch alot of final tables and it seems the big players always hit what they need. I know I can learn more and improve, but when you are constantly ahead and lose say before a final table when you play to win and are ahead its deflating. I've seen where people say it's your mentality, but I'm not sure about that at all. Everytime I'm in a showdown ahead when it matters I can sit there can call out the card that will fuck me over.. god its so frustrating, I'm not stupid, I know the game, not necessarily the math odds but I know it. What do I need to change? Where can I win those hands?

If anyone reads this I'm more than open to help and advice. I would love to get some help because I know I can succeed. I have always succeeded in things when I work at them..god damn its frustrating..just once I would like to jump up and be like fuck yeah I won and didn't get screwed over again..

here is a perfect example..im clearly ahead and this douchebag calls me with 1010 and hits the river...
PokerStars Game #26433781554: Hold'em No Limit ($0.50/$1.00) - 2009/03/27 18:54:09 ET
Table 'Neoptolemus II' 9-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: Prooxy ($115.40 in chips)
Seat 2: carydean ($59.40 in chips)
Seat 3: ICM vs. Nash ($39 in chips)
Seat 4: habaman ($110 in chips)
Seat 5: sahas81 ($22.50 in chips)
Seat 6: ariolis30 ($98.60 in chips)
Seat 7: budlgt13 ($36.70 in chips)
Seat 9: FlareMVP ($101.50 in chips)
sahas81: posts small blind $0.50
ariolis30: posts big blind $1
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to budlgt13 [Ks Jd]
budlgt13: raises $1 to $2
FlareMVP: folds
Prooxy: calls $2
carydean: calls $2
ICM vs. Nash: folds
habaman: folds
sahas81: folds
ariolis30: calls $1
*** FLOP *** [7d Js 2s]
ariolis30: checks
budlgt13: bets $4
Prooxy: folds
carydean: calls $4
ariolis30: folds
*** TURN *** [7d Js 2s] [2c]
budlgt13: bets $8
carydean: raises $16 to $24
budlgt13: raises $6.70 to $30.70 and is all-in
carydean: calls $6.70
*** RIVER *** [7d Js 2s 2c] [Tc]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
budlgt13: shows [Ks Jd] (two pair, Jacks and Deuces)
carydean: shows [Td Th] (a full house, Tens full of Deuces)
carydean collected $74.90 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $77.90 | Rake $3
Board [7d Js 2s 2c Tc]
Seat 1: Prooxy folded on the Flop
Seat 2: carydean showed [Td Th] and won ($74.90) with a full house, Tens full of Deuces
Seat 3: ICM vs. Nash folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: habaman (button) folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 5: sahas81 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: ariolis30 (big blind) folded on the Flop
Seat 7: budlgt13 showed [Ks Jd] and lost with two pair, Jacks and Deuces
Seat 9: FlareMVP folded before Flop (didn't bet)

PokerStars Game #26473869125: Tournament #149950010, $5.00+$0.50 Hold'em No Limit - Level VI (100/200) - 2009/03/28 19:42:52 ET
Table '149950010 86' 6-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: zammm (5795 in chips)
Seat 2: FerroHand (10335 in chips)
Seat 3: Jurrien1987 (14600 in chips)
Seat 4: budlgt13 (4085 in chips)
Seat 6: ep4941 (6980 in chips)
ep4941: posts small blind 100
zammm: posts big blind 200
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to budlgt13 [6h 6s]
Spectatr is connected
FerroHand: raises 400 to 600
Jurrien1987: folds
budlgt13: calls 600
ep4941: folds
zammm: folds
*** FLOP *** [8d Kc Kh]
FerroHand: bets 800
budlgt13: raises 1000 to 1800
FerroHand: calls 1000
*** TURN *** [8d Kc Kh] [3d]
FerroHand: checks
budlgt13: bets 1685 and is all-in
FerroHand: calls 1685
*** RIVER *** [8d Kc Kh 3d] [4c]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
FerroHand: shows [4d 4s] (a full house, Fours full of Kings)
budlgt13: shows [6h 6s] (two pair, Kings and Sixes)
FerroHand collected 8470 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot 8470 | Rake 0
Board [8d Kc Kh 3d 4c]
Seat 1: zammm (big blind) folded before Flop
Seat 2: FerroHand showed [4d 4s] and won (8470) with a full house, Fours full of Kings
Seat 3: Jurrien1987 folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 4: budlgt13 (button) showed [6h 6s] and lost with two pair, Kings and Sixes
Seat 6: ep4941 (small blind) folded before Flop