Time flies bye...no doubt. However, i cant believe its been a month since my last blog. truth be told.....after a couple shitty, imo, comments on my previous blog, comments about my CAPS LOCK BUTTON BEING STUCK...AND MY USE OF THE WORD FUCKKKKKKK...IN A BLOG ABOUT MY AILING GRAMMY, REALLY PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF. CAPS LOCK AND SWEARING...REALLY? WHAT THE FUCK EVER!!! SO THERES THAT, AND THERES MY GRAMMY'S PASSING THAT HAS MADE IT A LIL ROUGH TO COME BACK HERE AND BLOG.

I HAD MADE DAY 2 OF THE FOXWOODS $1500, AND BUSTED THE 1ST LEVEL OF DAY 2. ON MY WAY BACK TO MY BUDDIES I CALLED HOME AND MY MOM WAS ALL TEARED UP

"SHE PASSED YESTERDAY,YOUR DAD SAID TO WAIT TO TELL YOU AS HE THOUGHT IT BEST NOT UPSET YOU NOT KNOWING HOW THE TOURNEY WAS GOING"

"AHHH FUCK MOM, YA SHOULDA CALLED ME!! YOU OK"

WE TALKED A WHILE AGREEING SHE IS BETTER OFF. SHE WILL BE MISSED

TOMORROW IS DAY 4 OF THE MOHEGAN $5K MAIN AND IN HER HONOR/MEMORY I WILL CARRY HER PIC WITH ME...A CONSTANT REMINDER OF HOW SHE TAUGHT ME TO STRIVE TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE, REGARDLESS OF THE NUMEROUS FUCK UPS IVE ENCOUNTERED A LONG THE WAY. THIS ONES FOR YOU GRAMMY...

1 FUCKIN TIME..................

OR SO THE CLICHE GOES.

SICK, I LEFT THE BORGATA THIS MORNING HEADING NORTH ON 95. I LOST TRACK OF DAYS, AS POKER PLAYERS OFTEN DO, AND WAS PLEASED REALIZING IT WAS A SATURDAY. THIS WOULD MEAN FAR LESS TRAFFIC THAN THE FRIDAY I SOMEHOW THOUGHT IT WAS. I WASNT CERATIN IF I WERE GOIN TO STOP AT MY BUDDY PETES IN CT. OR NOT AND WHEN I TEXTED ASKIN IF HE WANTED TO GRAB SOME FOOD HE SAID HE WAS FULL AS HE JUST ATE AND THAT HE WAS GOIN TO PUT IN A LONG SESSION AT FOXWOODS. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, AND PROBABLY LONGER I HAD THE OVERWHELMING SENSATION OF...NOT WANTING TO PLAY POKER. MAYBE IT WAS BC I JUST SHIPPED THE BORGATA $500K, MAYBE, BECAUSE IM STILL COUGHIN UP ALIENS OUTTA MY THROAT I DONT KNOW. I CANT REMEMBER ACTUALLY NOT WANTING TO PLAY, THE ENTIRE IDEA OF BEING IN A CASINO REVOLTED ME....AND I CANT REMEMBER EVER HAVING THAT FEELING.

IT THEN BECAME OBVIOUS THAT I WAS HEADING TO MY FOLKS HOUSE. WHICH, IS ACTUALLY A MISNOMER OF SORTS, IT IS MY HOME AS WELL. THEY SAY YOU CANT GO HOME AGAIN, AND WELL, IM VERY FORTUNATE BECAUSE I CAN. ONE OF THE PREVILIGES OF BEING AN ONLY CHILD I SUPPOSE. MY ROOM IS EXACTLY HOW I'VE LEFT IT, EVERY TIME IVE LEFT AND CAME BACK SINCE MY 1ST YER OF COLLEGE, 1987, ABOUT A QUARTER CENTURY AGO.

FOR SURE THE ITEMS IN THE ROOM HAVE CHANGED, LONG GONE IS THE 14" BLACK + WHITE TV I HAD WHEN I WATCHED THE CELTICS DURING THE GLORIOUS 80'S, PUFFING MY MARLBOROS WHILE CHEERING BIRD,MCHALE AND AINGE. IN ITS PLACE A SLIGHTLY LARGER FLAT SCREEN. A PC DESK NOW IN THE SPOT WHERE MY BED WAS, IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW THAT I CLIMBED OUTTA + DOWN TEH CHIMNEY WHEN I WAS 13 TO EXPLORE THE SUMMER NITE, BEFORE I REALIZED I COULD JUST USE THE BACKDOOR.

I THINK BACK TO SIMPLER TIMES AS NOW, NER DEATH SEEMS TO BE THE TIME OF REFLECTION.

I WALKED IN THE FRONT DOOR, THE SMELL OF MOM MAKIN DINNER HIT ME IMMEDIATELY. I GAVE MY POPS A HUG AND CARRIED IN SOME STUFF. HE HELPED AS, THATS JUST THE SORTA GUY HE IS. I WALKED INTO THE KITCHEN AND GAVE MY MM A HUG. SHE WAS WEARING A "BUST A PRO" FTP SHIRT, THE ONLY ONE I HVNT AUCTIONED OFF. I FELT A TWINGE OF PRIIDE.

I COULDNT GO STRAIGHT AWAY TO SEE MY GRAMMY. LOTTA MEMORIES AS SHE NOW IS IN THE ROOM MY BABCHI HAD, PRIOR TO HER PASSING. I MADE THAT WALK TO VISIT WITH HER TOO MANY TIMES TO COUNT. I PUT AWAY SOME STUFF, TOOK A DUMP, PUT AWAY SOME MORE STUFF AND ASKED FOR STRENGTH, SHE LOOKED SO SIK! I REACHED FOR HER HANDS SHE AND LIT UP LIKE AN ANGEL. AND I REMEBER BACK TO THE LAST TIME I VISITED HER, BECAUSE THE WAS THE LAST TIME SOMEONE HAS BEEN THAT HAPPY TO SEE ME. AND AS I LEFT THE ROOM THE EMPTINESS ENGULFED ME.....IM GONNA MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH GRAMMY SO FUCKKKKKKKKKIN MUCH!!!

I LOVE YOU GRAMMY..............

FOR MY 2ND 6 FIGURE SCORE!! BUT ALAS, IT HAS COME. PERHAPS WE TAKE IT FOR GRANTED AND THINK THEY'LL FLOW LIKE OLIVE OIL IN AN EGG PAN, BUT IT JUST ISNT TRUE. I BRICKED NEARLY ALL IN 2010, SO CLOSE SO MANY TIMES. AND 2011 WASNT TREATIN ME MUCH BETTER...I PRLLY HAVE MORE 20-10TH PLACE FINISHES INDA COUNTRY, SO TODAY...TODAY WAS SPECIAL!
http://espn.go.com/poker/?tryba
2 years, 7 months, 22 days OR....967 days OR....
* 83,548,800 seconds
* 1,392,480 minutes
* 23,208 hours
* 138 weeks (rounded down)
THATS A LONG TIME. I RAN LIKE EVERY PLAYERS DREAM, FLOPPED BIG AND HELD OR WON RACES OR MADE NUT STR8S. OH IT WAS SWEET FUN. THE FALL FROM 10 TO 9 WAS REALLY LONG AS I WAS TIRED AND SIK...TRUTH BE TOLD I JUST THINK NO ONE WANTED MY GERM INFESTED CHIPS
ONCE WE HIT THE FINAL TABLE AND DAY 3....IT WAS QUICK AND PAINLESS. AND I WENT BACK TO RUNNING AWESOME WHERE AS I HAD LOST LOADS OF SHIPS REACHING THE FINAL TABLE.
YES...I SHIPPED THE BORGATA $500K GTD FOR $105,000 AND YES, IT FEELS FUCKIN GREAT!!!
1 MORE FUCKIN TIME........