I've been feeling pretty disconnected from the "real world". I find it hard to make good friends. I've been finding it hard to relate to non-poker players and even some poker players I can't really relate to. I'm not really the type of person that likes to spew in clubs and show off. I'm a pretty boring, nerdy type of person. I love Starcraft 2 and DotA 2 I'm not going to lie...Maybe, my problem is I can only relate to nerdy people like me and they are hard to find (at least where I live).

Poker sucks for meeting new people in your area. Sure I've made a few poker friends in other countries but how does that help me have a birthday party or going out for sushi etc? I'd like to make friends with a nice group of people that enjoy doing half interesting nerdy stuff, but I've been running dry. When I worked, I made friends with the people I worked with, or when I went to school... Playing poker online you are not forced into those social interactions...

What should I do? I was thinking moving to a big city?

Any suggestions?

She read my previous blog about how girl friends are -ev. If you haven't read it give it a good read now. She wasn't too happy.

We argued for a good hour and then she proceeded to ignore me. She was really hurt because she took what I said literally as if I wanted to secretly pick Saturday's to play poker instead of hanging out with her. It's not true, I don't do anything I don't normally want to do. I much rather enjoy my Saturday's spent with her than grinding another day but she didn't seem to think so after reading that blog. She also, now feels guilty that she's taking away from my "poker career".

I explained to her that I love her deeply and that what I wrote was my mind frame when I first started dating her and now we've been dating for two years and I'm emotionally involved and love her deeply. She got over it the next day, and now we're back to normal. I should of taken 1Banditpanda's advice and delete the blog. LOL As Tony G would say "too late now!"

Now, I'm struggling with trying to stay motivated. I've been on a two week down swing which I know for some people its nothing but after running so good I'm running bad. Thus, is poker. Again, hard to stay motivated on a down swing. I've been taking a lot of time off and playing some 6-max PLO cash. Nothing crazy, just 50PL and 100PL. I've been winning so I'm not complaining just yet.

Its always nice to take a small break from poker and just play some PLO.

Hopefully, I'll get back into MTT's in a few weeks... We'll see.

Here's some pictures of us from Vegas 2011 during the WSOP. Sick Brag: I won a ME package for a stay at Venetian Palazzo hotel, and ME seat, I brought her along :). I busted Day 3 after being top 20 in chips or something on Day 1c BOO!!!!!!!!!

PS. Love is tough but it is worth it.

I took sometime off to plan out my girlfriend's surprise birthday party. She's 22 now and we've been dating for 2 years. Pretty crazy how time flies. Giving up time for someone is tough. I want to grind poker like crazy everyday but I can't get the house ready and plan a party at the same time. Its really hard to imagine if I'd be making more money if I wasn't dating her or if I would be making less because having her to keep me extra happy is +EV. Who knows? Most likely, having a girl friend is worse for your poker career.

I love my girlfriend really much, so I doubt I'll break up with her over poker, though I've seriously thought about it. I just love playing poker so much I hate the fact that I have to give up my Saturdays so I can see her. I wish I could see her during a week day but she can't.

There is less distractions though. Before dating Nadia(girlfriend), I'd be trying to hit on a bunch of women on the internet while playing poker. Now, my distraction is having her message me or try and web cam with me during a session. She's calmed down a bit on doing that since I've been winning a lot more when she doesn't distracted me... Who would of known!?

Its really tough having a girlfriend... Like I've said in another blog, its hard to be accepted by their family when you say you are a poker player, not only that girls want stability. They want someone they don't have to worry about money with and see a future.

She still asks me every once and awhile what I'm going to do with my life, if I'm going to go back to school. We'll see... I'd like to run a business of some sort in the future with money I'll win from poker so I don't have to be grinding forever.

Giving up Sundays sucks when she asks to sleep over, and my sleep is all messed up... sigh...



I guess I shouldn't be complaining some people struggle with trying to find a good girl, or even with dating. To those people I just suggest you do some research on the subject. There's plenty of material on the internet, just make sure its legit. I've struggled in the past with women but I did the research and now I have no problems.