So after looking through the forums here at P5's I got the idea to start a blog. I will try to update this weekly at the minimum and much more if possible. I guess I can give you some short background info, if you're not interested in that just skip this paragraph and the current events begin. I first started playing poker casually online when i was 16 yrs old. I just deposited $25 here and there on pokerstars, and played with my friends in little $5 games. I felt that I was a good poker player because I won against my friends frequently, but online I would usually lose it all in one night. I had done no reading on strategy, my arsenal of poker knowledge consisted of watching rounders once. Then one day I decided to put some more money on as school had gotten out at half the day because of the snow storm. I reload $25 and join the 3r+ on Stars at about 1 p.m. After 9 hours my pocket 10s were cracked at the FT and I took 4th. $1,347. I was in shock. At the time i was 17 years old and had a car to pay off so I withdrew 1k and left the rest on. It was gone in less than 2 weeks because I thought i had enough money to play the $11 rebuys now :). Here we are 2 years later and I have overtime lost all this money and more back to the online machine. I have had some successes at the indian casinos as i have gone on a heater and cashed in 2 tournaments and rocked some saturday night $1/$2. But, overall I would say I'm down quite a bit in poker. Some would say i should just walk away and quit for good. But, hopefully if you're reading this you can relate to not wanting to quit, no matter what the costs. It's a game I love and I want to become a winning player and i know I'm capable of it.
I have recently received some help from A V0id in Me who I can't think enough for his advice and pointing out obvious holes in my game. He also showed me where some great online resources were for me to learn tons about sng strat. After first meeting him I spent a week practicing not so good BR management then one night i saw that i only had $.02 left in my acct as i was playing in a $1 9 man. I went on to win the 9 man and over the next week slowly rebuilt my acct back up to $56 by playing $1and $2 SNGs. Then this previous sat. March 28th? I had a stressful night and took it out on my BR. I played $5, $6, and even one $22. I even told myself that I should have won some of those and I was so sick of suckouts. I was honestly back to believing that I was just unlucky. Well, now my acct. sits at $.82 and I have realized that I lacked any control over myself. I accrued $37 in rakeback last month as I blew through much more money than I should have, and it is due to be deposited between April 5th-April 20th. I am going nuts reading articles and taking quizzes on sng wizard. I plan to come back with that $37 and play the lowest limit SNGs i can ($1) even though i know this doesn't necessarily follow proper BR management its my only option and will be the ONLY exception I make. Beyond that I intend to practice the 100 buy in rule. After reviewing the HHs of those games I tilted, i realized that I was just playing like a donk in a hurry to go somewhere. I am finding this period of self reflection almost essential to coming back at the game with a true conviction to succeed. I hope I don't bore you as you follow me along the crazy world of $1 SNGs but, if you're curious to see if a donk just falls on his face again, feel free to check in once in awhile. Or maybe one day you will notice me at your table and know that either I am playing out of my BR, or maybe, just maybe, you're going to be seeing a lot more of me at your limits because I made it.