I keep trying to get better, but sometimes I wish I could go back in time to when I was playing my best and understand at a deeper level what I was doing, and be able to keep that feeling and mentally going onward into the future. with the variance in tourney poker, its so easy to just feel like the feeling is gone, and to use a baseball analogy, the ball currently looks as big as a pebble when its being thrown to me. Watching vids are nice, but emulating people is not gonna change your luck, or the way people play against you. All I can really do is try and make the best reads possible and go with them sometimes. Obviously poker is a much easier game when you know your opponents cards, and sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is the thinking that even if im not getting the cards, or guys are catching hands against me, is that I can either limit the damage by making a good fold, or bluffing with air when I know my opponent is weak. Poker can be so hard though sometimes, I will admit that, and over the last few years Ive learned so much about this amazing game, that sometimes I feel totally conflicted and confused when I play. Oh well, outward and onward
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