After 4 weeks of complete and total BS, I officially hit my wall today at Paradise.

I can handle losing. I hate it, but I can handle it and try to learn.

But when QQ cannot beat JJ headsup, when i turn the str with q10 and a board of kj79 and the person who calls with j9 gets a river of a 9........

I lose to Brsavage with 88 v aq, yet have had aq countless times the last several weeks and have been drier than the sahara. AK too, yet when I have had a big pair against slick somehow it miraculously hits.

AA on 8K BB with 40K stack, raised on, allin...he calls...he has aj, yet the flop and turn give him the nuts.

Clearly I am getting the hint and it is time to take a long break from cards and Paradise. Good play and being ahead are not being rewarded to me, yet when the roles are reverses I cannot catch. I reviewed my hand history and it digusted me so much I actually needed to smoke a joint to forget what I read.

I am sure others have had runs like this and would appreciate some encouragement. Poker has stopped being fun for me. I fear the worst...like I somehow know the cpu. is going to f me.....

I just don't need that in my life.