mr blonde says they suck, but i believe my drinking is turning into a problem. i sometimes drink too much (not always) but i over drink when im upset and do stupid shit. and i hate it. (mr blonde says they suck but says its good for support. thats something i have in no aspect of my life now)

i also like to drink when im bored. i am very bored now. im not some alky that has to wake up to drink, but i do get the urge to drink at around this time almost everyday cuz im bored.

its hard to cut myself off too, since i seem to get a delayed reaction to alcohol, thus encourages my over drinking at times, though if i have to drive, i have enough control to stop, but only cuz i know i can go home and drink more if i want too. if i did decide to drink tonight, i have a limit, cuz i have to wake up early enough, but im not so much a happy camper so i might go overboard too. so aa is looking like an option.

problem is, i love vodka. it usually puts me in a good mood, but this is august, which is a bad month for me which started my downward spiral 13 years ago. sigh.

you're gonna get way better advice ITT after me, but a really bad hangover usually curbs my appetite for booze for awhile. . .not a permanent fix, but usually puts me on the straight and narrow for a couple weeks. . .so, that's my wake-up to slow my roll. . .

 

Originally Posted by satchmo

you're gonna get way better advice ITT after me, but a really bad hangover usually curbs my appetite for booze for awhile. . .not a permanent fix, but usually puts me on the straight and narrow for a couple weeks. . .so, that's my wake-up to slow my roll. . .

that would be great and used to work, but i have a fairly high tolerance built up now and rarely even get a mild headache anymore.

i was court ordered for a while, i imagine its different if you want to be there and are working the steps and shit but i thought it was boring as fuck and useless, just a bunch of fuck ups complaining and disguising brags as shame cause they can't hang anymore*

i'm like 24% serious here, like i said, its surely a much different experience if you're there for the right reasons. another problem i had with it is they push jesus on you, i know they say its just a higher power and everything but i didnt see anyone there reading the kuran

when i did quit drinking for a while , years after my AA nonsense, i just worked and fucked alot, boredom is the worst side effect of being sober

 

Originally Posted by wowswift

that would be great and used to work, but i have a fairly high tolerance built up now and rarely even get a mild headache anymore.

I'll take one more shot. . .was hanging out with some friends a few months ago and the conversation was about running marathons; my friends had been doing some running. well, i'm way out of shape and haven't run in at least 10 years. after a few beers the conversation led me into taking a bet that I couldn't run 26 miles in 26 days. I'm pathetic, I know. well, I didn't want to lose this bet, so I took it somewhat seriously. I didn't drink any of the nights during the month; a mile was enough of a challenge a day that I didn't want to handicap myself further. . .

 

Originally Posted by satchmo

I'll take one more shot. . .was hanging out with some friends a few months ago and the conversation was about running marathons; my friends had been doing some running. well, i'm way out of shape and haven't run in at least 10 years. after a few beers the conversation led me into taking a bet that I couldn't run 26 miles in 26 days. I'm pathetic, I know. well, I didn't want to lose this bet, so I took it somewhat seriously. I didn't drink any of the nights during the month; a mile was enough of a challenge a day that I didn't want to handicap myself further. . .

lol i'd still do the bet, i wouldn't care. i'd just double it up somehow even though i hate running, im pretty determined to do that shit. i think my problem of drinking happens when i pound 5 doubles in 3 hours or less. then i let all the shit on my mind get to me. and then i do the dumbest shit alive and am in current regret. blah. i dunno, i got a lot of shit to figure out in not a lot of time.

 

Originally Posted by Camz2895

you don't have support? aren't you married or engaged?

we are married currently but we will be divorcing. and no, that's not why i want a drink. this has been decided for months.

 

Originally Posted by wowswift

we are married currently but we will be divorcing. and no, that's not why i want a drink. this has been decided for months.

Joke right?

Good stories to hear from others and if you see to many similarities maybe slow down

try beer? I drink while bored or to pass the time a lot but slow so a night might be 5 beers, barely a buzz, threat a major jail time didn't hurt either. Still drink booze on weekends in accepted quantaties but that's it

 

Originally Posted by tommpat2000

Joke right?

Good stories to hear from others and if you see to many similarities maybe slow down

try beer? I drink while bored or to pass the time a lot but slow so a night might be 5 beers, barely a buzz, threat a major jail time didn't hurt either. Still drink booze on weekends in accepted quantaties but that's it

no joke, its been posted a couple times, but yeah, never much of a beer drinker, but i dunno. im just sad right now thats all :( i should just go to sleep, which i don't do much of anymore. too much crap, blah.

yeah, who knows. i'll be fine. i somehow figure shit out. this time is just a bit different.

In b4 I was drunk excuse

Start smoking crack. Rumor has it that crack whores don't drink much.

 

Originally Posted by wowswift

lol wtf, i never laughed at your shit, i just said you shouldn't blame people for what happened to you. like me, i can't blame alcohol for my retarded shit, im not mad at the alcohol. just myself. and no, i rly have no one. this is what happens when you never do anything for yourself, and for everyone else. you never let people get close, you have no one to turn too. the ones that did get close, are gone. that's my life. either that or i don't want to bother them with my problems, cuz im pretty sure no one rly gives a shit. but that's how i think, so there. f this thread

Being the nice guy that I am, I do understand. But I'm glad I gave you a laugh, even if it only was a small snicker. I've never battled a demon like alcoholism, so sadly I can't give you advice on it, but I am rooting for you.

 

Originally Posted by wowswift

we are married currently but we will be divorcing. and no, that's not why i want a drink. this has been decided for months.

how did I miss these posts?

please tell me that is just some kind of sick/bad joke

Ugh. Sorry to hear this. I had experience with a problem drinker in my fam growing up. It did not get better with age so it is probably best to tackle it asap. Doing something is better than doing nothing imo.