I've had an eventful year, ended a relationship that I was 90% sure was going to end in marriage

took my job from just a way to pay bull shit bills and get by to my main reason for living

ended said relationship, was lonely for quite a while, occasionally convincing a random to accept my gift of semen into one of her orifices, but mostly just passing time between drunks and work

I catch some music now and then but I'm not quite sure what I'm really passionate about these days, my group of friends are really people who I just tolerate

along comes another girl, I'm not gonna post her picture because I'm in love with her, she's perfect, put all my life into perspective just knowing that people like this are out there, she was only in town for a few months to write a thesis on something involving this town, just passing through, she told me when she came she was a stranger, but things just happened and she ended up extending her stay for a quite a while, finally ended up leaving after about six months, she's got to finish her life and posting up with a drunk cook in asheville is not gonna get it done... things have just not been the same, I cant even hang out anymore without getting depressed, through all of this, I found a bit more passion in my work, and without going into any detail, because I get ghosted by some people on here, I've got an opportunity coming up to take my game to the next level... something that a year ago would have seemed amazingly out of reach is here, and I don't fucking want it, I've completely lost touch with what I"m even doing here

It seems like the closer I get to what I think I want the less I want it. I know if I stay where I'm at and keep plugging away, I'll be able to feel incredibly successful and everything will be swell, but I also feel like I'm at a crossroads. I've got a path that I've been working towards finally paved and if I keep walking it it'll be all said and done, I think I might let it fall down to a coin flip, if I walk I've got nothing, but at least then i'm not bored, I think I want to get to japan and get addicted to heroin or something, not sure why I'm even putting all this out there, just bored, from the outside looking in I'm probably a bit of a success story, but being content is the fucking devil and I try not to fuck with the devil

nqpw

Tough part is finding the balance between doing what you are passionate about that makes you happy and doing what makes you money so you can afford the needs in life.
I haven't even came close to finding either of those.

 

Originally Posted by Phareal15

Tough part is finding the balance between doing what you are passionate about that makes you happy and doing what makes you money so you can afford the needs in life.
I haven't even came close to finding either of those.

what's fucked is that I have that balance, i do what i'm passionate about and i do it well, I just think that i'm at that point where things begin to become routine and that depresses me, the happiest times of my life looking back were when I was useless and had no future planned out... I'm 26 and this is what is supposed to be happening and I fucking hate it

"It seems the closer" quote hits home. I think it's the feeling of finality, and the end of options. I was going to say "hope" instead of options, but only in the "the sky's the limit/anything is possible" way. When you make that career/life choice I think you are feeling the death of all the other paths your life could go. It is a little silly bc there's still so much living and choosing and paths to come, but I think the feelings of loss are real.

As for the girl did she love you? Is there hope to be together? Romantic goofyness sure, but enquiring minds and whatnot

And most importantly, I don't think you know what "content" means. It doesnt mean settling or stagnation or stopped. It means happy. Glgl

Maybe a lil less booze/drugs? Just sayin.

Repost but it feels like your post:

stop drinking you fuck up.

 

Originally Posted by warden

everything sacaniga posts is threadworthy

keep on keepin on

this

niga fuck your change

I remember having a crush with Molly Ringwald...

What's the furniture situation down there? Should I rent a van or a truck if I visit?

Go be with the girl. I am sure you can be a chef anywhere. If she was really that special, why not go for it?

 

Originally Posted by sacaniga

I've had an eventful year, ended a relationship that I was 90% sure was going to end in marriage

took my job from just a way to pay bull shit bills and get by to my main reason for living

ended said relationship, was lonely for quite a while, occasionally convincing a random to accept my gift of semen into one of her orifices, but mostly just passing time between drunks and work

I catch some music now and then but I'm not quite sure what I'm really passionate about these days, my group of friends are really people who I just tolerate

along comes another girl, I'm not gonna post her picture because I'm in love with her, she's perfect, put all my life into perspective just knowing that people like this are out there, she was only in town for a few months to write a thesis on something involving this town, just passing through, she told me when she came she was a stranger, but things just happened and she ended up extending her stay for a quite a while, finally ended up leaving after about six months, she's got to finish her life and posting up with a drunk cook in asheville is not gonna get it done... things have just not been the same, I cant even hang out anymore without getting depressed, through all of this, I found a bit more passion in my work, and without going into any detail, because I get ghosted by some people on here, I've got an opportunity coming up to take my game to the next level... something that a year ago would have seemed amazingly out of reach is here, and I don't fucking want it, I've completely lost touch with what I"m even doing here

It seems like the closer I get to what I think I want the less I want it. I know if I stay where I'm at and keep plugging away, I'll be able to feel incredibly successful and everything will be swell, but I also feel like I'm at a crossroads. I've got a path that I've been working towards finally paved and if I keep walking it it'll be all said and done, I think I might let it fall down to a coin flip, if I walk I've got nothing, but at least then i'm not bored, I think I want to get to japan and get addicted to heroin or something, not sure why I'm even putting all this out there, just bored, from the outside looking in I'm probably a bit of a success story, but being content is the fucking devil and I try not to fuck with the devil

Follow the girl if you love her, might never happen like this way again.
You never really know what you got until it's gone

 

Originally Posted by sacaniga

why?

Its the wrong drug of choice for the situation your in.

I'd suggest trying a drug that can change your outlook on life and provide you with a new way of looking at your problems.