“Running bad” or “cold decked”
cannot explain it entirely. “Variance”
and “downswings” are just fancy terms the experts use to candy coat the
horrific short term results. The truth
of the matter is all poker players seem to go through it at one point or
another, no matter the stakes done in by some unexplainable force.
I’m talking about, “How the hell
could I run like this? I’ve come too
damn far in my poker career to lose to these terrible players over and
over!”
Yes, we can finally say it people,
it’s time to admit it to ourselves. We
officially can’t consistently beat and win at the same sweet games we once
crushed and lived on. Right now it feels
like we can’t have a 70/30 situation hold up and the coin used to race off our
flips feels like it has to be one of those same sided coins sold in novelty
stores (my philosophy is tails never fails but bam---heads every time).
Lately I get punished for waiting
patiently for the right time to go for the kill against that over aggressive
opponent who has been trying to run over the table when I hit my top set on the
flop with position. I decide to use the
villains LAG maniac approach to the game against him. I know from my assessment and read on the
villain’s hand ranges, his line in this particular hand and situation is too
aggressive and representing way too much because his range is so wide, so no
matter what he has I have the best hand possible at this point.
Your gut and instinct says his line
is actually weak and screams “I’m on a draw… please don’t call me!” You counter his/her blitzkrieg style by using
your table image to a “T” throughout the entirety of the hand by controlling
the pot even when your opponent doesn’t even realize it. Dragging the villain into the depths of the
abyss of no return but somehow, someway the river brings back life into a
lifeless situation for your opponent almost seemingly every time.
During this downswing you
absolutely hate the river in these situations.
It never pairs the board to give you a complete strangle hold of the
nuts but is always that final flush card to put three on the board (the funny
thing is whenever you need a flush card it seems to never come anymore no
matter what). You just know from that
empty feeling in your stomach they chased their flush all the way to the river
because he is one of those “flush monkeys” that doesn’t give up his flush draw
no matter what and will put his tournament life or entire stack in a cash game on
the line for this draw.
What makes it so bad is your well
though out and perfectly planned and executed bet on the turn ultimately gives
him the wrong price to chase the flush any longer because his break even % is
not suffice in this situation for him to call with any +EV. The sad part is you understand the concepts
of pricing players in when the time is right and pricing them out of pots to
make it a –EV spot for them and by them calling it will simply be
non-profitable in the long haul. But for
the opponent, he or she doesn’t even know what positive equity is and all they
see is that if they continue with their draw they might, just might get lucky
on the river. They were taught and
believe that is what poker truly is about, “getting lucky”.
It’s just so sick when it gets to
the point where you just expect to hit complete air on the flop or the river to
be a gift from the heavens for the villain because it has been a vast majority
of the times during this run. You realize
it is said we all should run the same over an extended period of time. I honestly believe in this statement and don’t
have a problem with the variance factor of poker when it evens out over that
extended period of time. But it’s so
frustrating because your opponents seem to get so lucky on you on such a
regular and consistent basis. What makes
it hard to cope with is it always seems to be at the wrong time in almost every
tournament to date---you know right before the final table, the money or for
the chip lead.
These “luckboxes” are the players
who type in the chat box after a classic suck out, “that’s poker” to justify an
idiotic play when you had them on the ropes.
They don’t even realize they will hit their two outer on the river only about
five times out of a hundred compared to the ninety five times they won’t (not
factoring ties of course). The fact of
the matter is so many players today think they truly understand the game and
have it down pat when in actuality the percentage of these players who really
do is very minimal.
There are just not that many players
who are true students of the game---not realizing it takes hours of self
analysis dissecting all the ins and outs of your game no matter how small to
become better. Because poker isn’t as
simply as the producers make it seem on TV---it’s actually a very complex skill
game even more so than the likes of chess and backgammon. Poker’s depth can actually become mind
numbing with infinite ends and lines that can simply leave you lost if you
aren’t ready and prepared for the endless and ongoing evolution of poker and
the strategy to go with it.
This is the reason not that many
players today even know or understand some basic intangibles of the game I
take for granted, like some of the key poker concepts mentioned earlier. It took me many twelve hour sessions, hundreds
of thousands upon hundreds of thousands of hands, hours upon hours playing the
felt against every type of player you can imagine at stakes as low as $.01-$.02
limit to as high as $25-$50 No-Limit to understand that these concepts I learned
at every level will ultimately help make me become a successful player in my
poker career not because I can pick up and read a poker book or watched it on
TV.
So that is why the losing months
don’t make much sense since your understanding of the game seems to be so far
ahead of the average player. The young successful
whiz kids of today’s barely legal to vote internet generation of poker players even
have an ongoing joke in the online forums.
They call the tournaments nowadays “donkaments”, to justify the trend of
terrible players playing in tournaments everywhere, at all levels. They even go as far as to say the “live”
field is even much softer than the online realm (Many argue that online play is
actually tougher than live play and overall just better, and there are many
prominent respected online players who have had success in the live arena that
say so too).
This bad run really begins to leave
you speechless because coolers seem to be so hip and in style this season. The positive equity in your overall play and
decisions made to best benefit your poker career in the long run gets their
butt’s kicked like an underdog in a heavy weight prize fight. You know that old school knock ‘em out, drag
‘em out fifteen-round battle against the reigning world champ, which happens to
be the variation of the cards.
Optimal and consistent play from
your part by making the best decisions and plays on as a consistent basis is
always a winning formula to profitable play at the poker table but the poker
gods just seem to angry with you right now.
You find yourself getting your money in with the best of it at an
alarming rate and still end up on the rail prematurely. It’s beginning to feel like a conspiracy the
other players and dealers set up before hand just to let you know variance is
not the only thing trying to stack your roll.
Yet we continue to play, not matter
what…buy in after buy in, bad beat after
bad beat,, runner runner, three outer
after three outer…because you know without a doubt in your heart your “bad
luck” is about to change. If you could catch
a break you would breakthrough and finally make a final table on TV and be
featured in magazines and such glorifying your recent big scores.
This once achievable dream of one
day being a household name like other great poker pros is now very dark and
isolate. Realistically, now further away
than even before you started playing the game---before you were introduced to Moneymaker
and Rounders. Nobody believes in your
game anymore, including the other players and even worse sometimes yourself.
You can’t explain it, your winning
ways gone and you even suspect some family members whispering, “He plays way
too much poker…he might have a gambling problem.” Which they never would dare say when you are
running well and crushing the game, now would they?
But it doesn’t really matter what
other people think now does it, or we probably wouldn’t be poker players would
we? It’s not so much the bad beats (well…yeah
it is) or the cold to the touch cards that seem to come every time you look
down but the consistent terrible play from others. Seeing those players still cash and make the
money in tournaments they have no business even being is very hard to deal
with---especially when they are playing with your chips and money.
Remember, it seems every time you
do wake up with a hand, of course one of these sloppy suckers has picked up a
monster, chased the gut-shot and hit or simply hit his two outer on the river. I know they say “fish” are the people who pay
the bills and that luck simply doesn’t exist in the long run, and these bad
beats should never let your emotions take a hold of your game no matter what,
but how could it not?
Because a man can only take so much
punishment and torture before he breaks.
A good old fashioned breaking point---the point of no return with one’s
own shadowy confidence whether to keep playing or give it up entirely because it’s
been hurting so badly lately---especially to your confidence and your bankroll. How could you ever think about playing this harsh
game for a living, especially after a horrific run like this? That one time unbeatable approach, instinct
and overall game seems like it’s starting to fade.
It seems somehow by fate’s ultimate
plan when you are running like this you always find one of these lucky donkey
bastards one way or the other every time you see the felt. They push all-in pre flop with thirty-five
big blinds after you have already re-raised a three bet with Pocket
Cowboys. When the cards are turned over
you see the villain’s A-10 and he says with such a boastful sound of “it’s sooted”
to reassure his play. Once again, of
course an ace hits on the turn and your stack is now dwindling.
The concept of fold equity is
simply foreign to them and they just come over the top because they believe in
their heart in a full ring game their A-10 five bet shove is going to get them
chips because it is the best hand, not to get the other player to fold a better
hand. You think to yourself how could
these types of players even begin to think they are ahead with a raise, a re-raise
and four bet in front of them? I guess
they missed that part of the book in “Poker for dummies” that says there are
just way too many other hands that not only beat A-10 in this spot, but
dominate it!
Also, they consistently call out of
position and overplay small pocket pairs and suited connectors from early
position or even three barrel bluff at very odd and bad times. These players could never establish a range
of hands for an opponent not knowing what “level two” thinking is. They don’t have the mentality or make up to
make big lay downs or give up a hand even when everyone at the table knows
their Aces are beat. They fall in love
with their hands telling the sharks in the room right where they are at in the
hand every time, not realizing that they probably won’t win at poker in the
grand scheme of their poker life even with all the luck in the world.
You’re starting to ask yourself why
do I continue to dance with the Devil by playing through the bad times but then
you remember who you are. That poker
player who plays with patience and selective aggressiveness unlike many of the
other players you have come across. You
show flashes of brilliance by playing with “Seamless Agility” (Apostolico Card
Player Magazine December 19, 2007) against all foes. Including battling against and simply
outplaying your fare share of “pros”.
So you keep playing, knowing in
your heart that they can’t continue to get so lucky and run hot on everyday
basis. Especially when you are grinding
away like a true Rounder is supposed to---not gambling away livelihood, checks
and more importantly your roll on a Vegas pipe dream.
You are fed up with this run around
and finally stand up for yourself---not caring anymore about the old saying, “If
you play poker long enough you will run worse than you ever thought possible.” You are sick and tired of days filled with dogs
getting way too much sunshine on their asses by getting insanely lucky so
often.
So you say to yourself, “I’m back
boys and girls, that killer is back on the loose and this bad run will go on no
longer because I believe in myself that much and it will end as simply as that! I am not going to think…what if anymore. That negative thought process and overall
negative energy is over and done with and out of my life for good!”
To be honest, I had an “ahhaw”
moment one week a little while back when playing in a four table $85 dollar
buy-in freeze out tournament at my local casino that sparked my stand against
poker variance. A thought popped into my
head during a hand I wasn’t involved in, I suddenly realized something.
I said to myself, “Hey wait a minute,
if I am not winning on a consistent basis right now, then who in this room is?”
Then I looked my table over again
and observed the remaining tables in the room. And just like I thought, most of
them in the room from my experiences of playing with them on a weekly basis say
they really are donkeys or jack asses. I
didn’t find one winning player in my eyes.
Now I am not talking about the hot streak these low limit players
sometimes go on, but the winning player over his/her poker career and life.
The fact of the matter is I now realize
in my poker career that a lot of you reading are truly not winning players, you
just can’t be. I can’t tell you how many
bad players I have played with and against live and online---low stakes to
medium stakes cash games and low level buy-ins to mid level ($500 dollar
buy-in) tournaments that to put it bluntly suck!
What sucks about it is these
players are just awful and they don’t even realize it. The thing is when you have been running
terrible like this you simply know the numbers don’t mean anything anymore and
you can throw them out the window. Because
you have seen too many people magically turn into Aaron Kantar of the ’06 WSOP
Main Event and hit that miracle river card oh too many times to believe the math
is right.
Brian Townsend (sbrugby online), high
stakes specialist and poster boy of what us “younger” players want to
ultimately become, said it best when he explained math as just approximations
to explain phenomena surrounding us.
Until then, just like he said he had done his entire life, I thought the
bull shit they were teaching us in math classes growing up was the absolute
truth, when in actuality it isn’t what we expect the truth to be at all.
Basically, all those smart people
telling you growing up that you have to believe in math like a religion, you
have to realize it really is just a bunch of theories. And to me, that means you can’t really prove
it, just explain it or try to. It’s a man
made application or synthetic concept really, basically meaning we “made it up.”
So go ahead keep believing those guys who made
up the math behind you figuring he has three outs on the river for
approximately 7% chance to hit with one card to go. Ninety three times out of a hundred is really
a huge favorite and you should feel extremely comfortable about your chances,
but when the river kills you once again and the last ten knockouts you have
endured hasn’t even added up to 93% then you know something isn’t right.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying
math is irrelevant in poker or even in life for that matter. It is one of the biggest and most important
aspects of the game (bank-roll management, ROI, EV, pot and implied odds,
etc...), but to believe in it without a doubt and that the cards will hold up
simply because of the math is where you are at fault. I truly feel that most great poker players
have the poker math down cold because they are just that instinctive and most “winning”
players have a higher and much more natural sense for the game not because they
received A’s in math class in high school or took Advanced Calculus in college.
They have developed over the years (or
“light years” as I call the advanced learning curve of the very successful internet
generation) from experience of playing so many hands a true feel for the game. So just like that kid who struggled with math
his entire life and just couldn’t figure out the principle concepts, these
terrible players hot run will probably never truly get them anywhere. It without a doubt develops a false sense of
success and mastery when in actuality they don’t understand the game at
all. Remember, there are people out
there who the game comes natural to and have that true feel for the game not
taught in any book. These are the
players who will be the winners in the long run evening out the variance just
like you and me.
Here it is folks. If you are a mid-stakes grinder who is better
than this gut wrenching stretch would indicate and know your OPR numbers are
just at a temporary low, and have been in a rut like mine for too long listen
to the following advice. Number one---stop
looking to others for advice.
I don’t care what others have to
say about this. Go back to your natural
game, because you are that good, and you believe this because you have already
proved it to yourself---moving flawlessly by shifting gears and staying one
step ahead of the strategies of the ongoing advanced learning curve. I now know and feel that you and you alone
are going to get you out of this run, by yourself. That great player you once were before these
results is still there, you just can’t give up.
The confusion you are feeling about
the game because of this losing streak will end when you say it will end, and
that day is today. Stop, think to
yourself and know that you can’t run like this forever---you weren’t playing
bad, that other dude was a lucksack and sucked out. Know the variance will end soon and be
patient because the cards are coming, because they have to.
Realize and understand all the
great ones before you have been in your shoes, maybe more than once if they are
honest. And this actually might not even
be the last time you run badly, but remember the player you are and the player
you will someday soon become. Know this
bad time in your poker life has made you a better player, actually a better
person---humbling every aspect of your life and game and actually making you
that much hungrier to get better at this game, to do this for a living.
You are going to dominate like you
once did, and you will get a break, catch the cards again and soon play so well
that all you can do is win and put together a bankroll to finally be one of the
best players in the world! Just play
within yourself and keep playing because you are so optimistic, making the
right decisions and plays on as consistent basis as possible every time you
play and you will be winner in the
long run! You are a +EV player
over a large sample size not some flash in the pan who has already seen his
best days.
On a final note, if you are going to
at least use on mathematical equation to understand the skewed short term
results of this horrible run take this one to heart. For every action, there is an opposite and
equal reaction. Basically think of your
run this way. It can’t get any worse,
right? Therefore, your horrible streak
is the action and for the time being know your hot streak is the opposite and
equal reaction and it’s just around the corner.
Poker is about timing and having
everything in your life and game come together at the right time to put it on
some folks…it’s there waiting, will you be ready? During one perfectly played tournament online
during the Sunday Million on PokerStars, will you have it in you to play
optimally under an enormous amount of pressure for hours to get to the final
table? When there, can you handle the
world watching from the rails, seeing every move you make with enormous amounts
of cash swinging in and out of your account with every turn of the card. Can your nerves handle a heads up match against
a scary sick player such as the monster himself “Mr. Menlo?” Or when ESPN introduces your face to millions
at the WSOP, when Phil Ivey is starring you down because your check raise stands
in his way of another bracelet, will you thrive like I know you can? I hope so, and hope to see you on TV “JustKLLinIt.”
Remember, variance will always be a
part of this game and it is up to you whether you accept that fact or not. Just think of your day playing the game we
love as battling a full ring of opponents with one extra seat. Variance will always be in seat 10 or 11 or
seat 7 if you like short handed games---but from now on, I hope you will no
longer let the past bad luck influence your decisions on the table.
Variance isn’t a true grinder like you. It’s
like most of the players you have come across, only around for the short
term. They will not outlast the fad
aspect of poker or the variance because unlike you they are not in it for the
long run.
This run has made you finally realizing
something---that every hand dealt is new life and that this hand in front of me
right now, in this particular moment is mutually exclusive from the hundreds of
thousands of hands before and the millions after.
Believe in yourself always no
matter what; because remember…you are just one big score away from getting a
start to getting that scratch together for the ultimate bank-roll. This
bankroll will allow you to play with the big boys and do what you wanted to do:
prove to the world that you can play some poker. Best of luck getting your name in the game and
see you at the tables, because “what doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger,”
right?