Current roll 480$
Ive been playing poker for over 5 years. Ive probably taken longer periods of time off from the game than some of the top players have even played. Its sad really that Ive only binked a few sizeable wins, barely big enough to make me a winning player over the period of time Ive been playing.
I recently took about 10 months off from poker, and Ive taken an entire year off before but I always come back for fun mostly and because I always thought I could win. Little did I know how bad I was.
Well recently Ive been lucky enough to have my 1,000th poker epiphany and realized how key patience is in MTTs and poker in general. So I decided to take a shot again and began playing some 3$ sngs.
I opened the software and downloaded the updates to see 4$ in my full tilt account and promtply opened a 90 man 3.30 KO sng with a new patience for picking my spots. I managed to take 2nd in the first one I played and it put me in the mindset to keep playing well, and I did continuing to grind those same games winning one soon after. Ove the next 6 days I could do no wrong. I began mutli tabling the ko sngs and killing them, switching over to super turbos and continuing to dominate. I was up to about 300$ when I decided I was playing well enough to take a shot in a 24$ MTT.
Had I not clashed with the chipleader in a pot at the final table trying to hit a straight with 8 outs (and not shoving) I gave up a lot of chips, then took a few bad beats and was out in 5th for 711$
It still felt like such a huge victory having gotten so far with my new found patience.
But variance reared its ugly head soon after. The games I was griding for steady profit turned on me and I began losing. Had some close calls to some decent scores but of course got unlucky at the end in crucial hands, and like worm said "I caught a stretch of cards you fucking read about." Losing kings like 4 times to AK in big pots and a whole mess of people catching up with underpairs. Its been brutal.
Ive grinded about 600 games in the last 10 days on my mission to build a sizeable bankroll from the bottom and have seen the ups and downs over just that small one week sample and this is definitely the worst run so far, but I continue to try and keep a level head and do this, because going broke again will really hurt my confidence and game in general. Poker is hard work, as Im sure everyone here knows. I no longer feel like that win is around the corner after 3 or 4 horrific days and its definitely scary.
Anyways this is my mission. While $10,000 is not a lot of money for most people here If I can grind up to that from the 4$ I began with it will give me the confidence that maybe perhaps I can do this, and become a winning MTT player. Currently at $480 and scared shitless of going broke It def wont be easy, but I hope to accomplish this feat in the next few months, to prove to myself I should continue playing this hellish and painful game.
You might see me grinding out low limit SNGS/MTTs on full tilt or pokerstars. Good luck to you, just not when youre in a pot with me. I dont need to be wishing my opponents any more luck. Not right now.