So i say to myself that it has been a long time since i have cashed a online poker tourney. It has been even longer since the last time i have even went deep so to speak. These are the times when you just have to take everything in stride,and realize what's going on with yourself instead of the game.
I for one have not made a post on this blog or any of my other; As working 60-80hrs a week can been grueling. And although my will is still the same for poker,I have to come to grips with all the things that i have been though this year as well.
You see there is a such thing as making excuses when you fuck up; As also there is a thing called reality as well. And the reality of this all is that even though i know in my heart; That i want to play poker live or online 40+ hrs a week. I have to realize that i have a family and a job as well as a shitload of bills to pay.
Now this is not saying that i have run bad for these reasons; But now i have to face the reality and come to grips with it. For example in the morning me and my wife are moving into our new place. Now i am very happy about this,but i would rather spend the next two days off playing poker instead of moving in.
And this is pretty much how this year has been going for me; And after being so optimistic and setting so many goals for myself right??? "The fact is that it's just another reality check and you have to learn to deal with the real world as well sometimes.
Now if i were a weak man i would not be able to come to grips with my low volume of play; Or how poorly i have played when i got deep; Or the fact that i shoved the BB with Q7o from the small blind, just because he folds here 70% of the time and he held KQ calls and im out! LOL it's nice to be aggressive but being stupid is another story.
Well anyway i have 3 months left in 2009 to make the money and too run deep. I am still yet to win my first MTT although i have however been lucky enough to know what it feels like to win some real cash. It seems that i might just have to take the rest of this year to get right for next year. But whatever poker has in store for me i will be ready.
I feel and i am still very confident about my game and poker. I am very well in tuned with my strengths and my weaknesses so i am humble. Poker is such a lovely game as you have so many ways to play it; And so many things that you learn every single day that you play. There has never been a game that i have played in to date,where i didn't learn something new that make me that much better.
And even though i work a lot of times i feel like i am not applying myself like i used too. Since now i don't really have the time i think i need to stop being a bitch and make the time. Anyway guys be on the look out for me so explode here sooner than later. I am ready and all will see exactly what i mean once i get all of my priorities in order.
CYA SOON
Willis SR8tAcEto5 Mccoy