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The Anticipation Is Killing Me


chrisp200

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What's up everyone?

Everyday for the past week has felt like Christmas eve. For those who don't know, this Tuesday I will be taking my poker journey overseas to Seefled, Austria. I don't think I could be more excited for the tournament. Prior to leaving on Tuesday, I will be playing a bunch of small local live tournaments as a preparation.

My Mental State

I can't stop thinking about the tournament in Austria. For the past few days I have been feeling like I am going to do really well. The structure of this event is by far the best live tournament structure I have played with 50,000 starting stack and 60 minute blind levels. This structure favors my style so much. I really think this is going to be the tournament that is going to allow me more freedom with poker. I don't know why I am getting that feeling, but this just seems like my time.

The Doubt Creeps In

Although I feel like I am going to do really well, I have also been experiencing a lot of moments of doubts:

What if I punt off all my chips?

What if I get a bad table draw?

What if I run into a big cooler early?

What if the field is not as soft as I expect it to be?

What if I'm too jet lagged to play well?

What if I don't meet the expectations of my friends, family, and fellow poker players?

What if I brick all the local tournaments prior to leaving for Europe and am doubting my game?

All of these things have been running through my mind but I am trying to block them out. I don't know how to get rid of these fears, but I am going to have another coaching session tomorrow with CardRunners Pro John Gonzalez to hopefully help me overcome these negative thoughts and help me feel more prepared for the CAPT Main Event. I know most people would say "just enjoy the trip and don't think about the tournament" and I want to do that, but my overall goal for this trip is to win the main event and anything less will be a failure to me.

I want to be able to tell my story in real time to anyone who cares about this trip and how I do. Make sure you are following me on Twitter @the_chrisp200 for all the updates. I will be posting pictures, videos, and chip updates of the entire experience and would love to have all your support.

Since My Last Post

Since my last blog post, I had my first coaching session which was incredibly helpful in finding some of my leaks. I want to make coaching a regular thing, if for nothing else to stay mentally focused during the downswings.

Online Results:

5th - BIG10 - $15,000 GTD for $1,398

3rd - BIG10 - $10,000 GTD for $1,398

3rd - BIG10 - $25,000 GTD for $2,518

In addition to these scores, I also won a package to the TKPT Main Event in St. Marteen on Intertops Poker. The event is $1,100 buyin with a 100K GTD Prize Pool.

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Live Results:

I played the $225 Deepstack at Rivers Casino but I busted in level 5 in a spot where I should have pot controlled and not had all my chips in the middle.

Although poker has been good to me lately, I still feel like I am making really crucial mistakes. I have been unable to close out a tournament and have felt very spewy in spots.

My live schedule over the next few days leading up to Austria looks like this:

2/19 $100+$15+$5

2/20 $200+$20+$5 Rivers Casino Deepstack

2/21 $80+$20 Three Rivers Poker Classic EVENT#1

2/21 $80+$20 Three Rivers Poker Classic EVENT#2

2/22 $170+$30 Three Rivers Poker Classic EVENT#3

2/22 $125+$25 Three Rivers Poker Classic EVENT#4

If any of you will be playing any of these events, come say hi. I am hoping to gain some confidence playing these small tournaments before I leave.

Thank you for the support and stay positive.

Chris Perkins

chrisp200

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Hey guys,

 

I am in Zurich, Switzerland now. The week didn't go as planned, having gone 0 for 4 in tournaments. I'm coming home tomorrow feeling pretty down on poker. I think traveling for live events makes getting knocked out feel that much more hard. I'll have full blog posts of my trip in the coming weeks.

 

Thank you for the support

 

Run good and think positive!

 

Chris Perkins

chrisp200

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It seems you really don't understand poker. Here is a documentary, I hope it will enlighten you in some way. good luck.

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I can't stop thinking about the tournament in Austria. For the past few days I have been feeling like I am going to do really well. I don't know why I am getting that feeling, but this just seems like my time.

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The Doubt Creeps In

All of these things have been running through my mind but I am trying to block them out. I don't know how to get rid of these fears

 

This is very simple to fix:

 

1. Firstly, feeling like it is 'your time' is your imagination, it is not premonition or psychic phenomena, and you need to accept this so that you can...

2. Have realistic expectations - Meaning that you turn up to a poker tournament knowing that all you can do is play your best, there will be no assistance from a higher power to help you win. So you show up and play your best, and do not expect to win every tournament. Once you are realistic about what results to expect you can....

3. Have no fears about losing. When you don't 'expect' to win this particular tournament, you won't be so terrified of having that dream shattered if you lose. So you can play clearer without fears and just accept whatever result occurs.

 

Basically, accept the nature of the game, and focus on good decisions. Don't worry about all the other superstitious stuff.

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It seems you really don't understand poker. Here is a documentary, I hope it will enlighten you in some way. good luck.

I watched this, it's cool

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